Okay, I feel totally ridiculous for how much this whole TV thing got to me. And I found a way to make myself feel better. I’m posting a picture of myself looking completely grubby. The only makeup I’m wearing is the stuff I didn’t quite manage to wash off last night. My hair is a mess, and I’m wearing a shirt I’ve had since high school (hey grunge! I still love you!)
How is this helping?
Well, because I think what was bothering me was that I felt like what was out there was a very distorted version of me. I am comfortable with actual me, but I didn’t feel right about cankle-necked washed out me. So this picture is my confidence booster. If I can say, here it is, here I am, this is me, I think I can get past this. I’m silly and I’m goofy and I don’t always worry about washing off all my mascara at night and some days I don’t put on real clothes and I’m fine with it. I’m a nice person, and I’m smart, and I care about things, and that’s what’s important. I don’t feel the need to be perfect. I just want to feel like me. Maybe that doesn’t make any sense, but I think it’ll make me feel better.
So here I am.
What? I just watched the video and I thought you looked and sounded great! In fact, Mickey and I were just talking about how cool it is that you were interviewed and what a fantastic job you did.
No one’s real personality shines through 100% in any interview. You educated viewers about something important, and that’s what counts. Plus, you really did look great. No cankle-neck. :)
I’m really just continuing my comment from the previous post.
I can’t think of a way that this doesn’t come out sounding mean, because that’s really not what I’m going for: It wasn’t about you. It was about shampoo, and you were just there to share your knowledge, which you did and very well at that. You sounded (and looked) smart and comfortable in the spotlight.
The Modern Gal says
Oh, Allie :)
Thanks, Courtney! I was happy with the way I sounded. I was worried I might pull a Palin (except I was just talking about shampoo, not the future of the country), and I was super happy that it didn’t go that way.
Mickey, that doesn’t sound mean at all, and it was EXACTLY what I needed to hear. I performed adequately in the required function, and that’s all that mattered. It wasn’t about me. It was about shampoo and about people using healthier products, which is something I’m completely passionate about.
Seriously, I needed to hear that. I’ve been fighting sick and I’ve been over tired and I let it get in my head in the wrong way and just bug me. Thank you. I really appreciate you saying that.
We’re here for ya.